Friday, June 22, 2012

Do you ever get to the point that you just don't care?

J took his BG for me today after I handed him the meter and multiclix lancet. 415 - not surprising at all. I told him to tell his pump (which is attached to him 24/7 after all). Next thing I know he is calling his Dad asking for a Coke and getting a shower. The shower is a HUGE improvement - HUGE. Really Gargantuan.
But now that he is out of the shower, I ask "did you tell your pump you were 415?"

Answer: No. Will he do it now? Nope. Does he care that his blood is chock full of sugar, damaging his heart, kidneys, eyes, etc? Nope. Not a bit. He apparently just cannot connect actions with consequences. And am I in there giving him insulin to bring him down? Nope, I'm blogging about it while I cool down enough to go in there without arguing with him. How hard is it to push a few buttons on a machine that is attached to you? I don't ask him to do it often - I usually do it. But, really, how hard can this be?

And the big question - what is going to become of him if (and that seems to be a BIG IF) he outlives me?

5 comments:

Marci said...

Just found your blog! I have a 15 yo, dx 1 year ago w/type 1 and bipolar. Not that I did not know about the bipolar from birth.. he has ADHD, anxiety, depression. His diabetes is out of control, with an a1c of 10.4. He is currently manic, too. I am looking forward to reading the rest of your blog! I totally get everything you have stated here- I can manage his diabetes but he has to and does it only when he feels like it.

Mom2aSweetBoy said...

Nice to meet you Marci :) It's always nice to find other people who can understand what my crazy life is like. So many people out there just don't have a clue. Sorry to hear about your son's bipolar. J's psych has mentioned he might be bipolar as well. It's really hard to pin down J and his assortment of craziness.

Anonymous said...

I find that a sense of humor is essential. At home we have 3 boys. My oldest is 21 and he has bipolar disorder as well. He also has ADD and cannot remember to shut doors, turn off lights, etc... We are lucky we have not been killed while we sleep. My step son was sent to live with us 3 years ago. He is 12. He has been DX with attachment disorder and PTSD, ADHD..he steals, lies, and his most recent pasttime was scratching cars in the neighborhood, which led to charges being filed. People ask me how I do it. I don't know. I just do! Nice to meet you as well! I do not have a personal blog, but I do blog for www.empoweringparents.com. My screen name is Emmie there.

Marci said...

The anonymous comment is from me, Marci....I pushed the wrong button.

Mom2aSweetBoy said...

Yes, I don't know Marci. I just feel like lately my sense of humor about the situation is getting thin. I think it's J's hateful attitude toward me. He also steals and lies. A lot of lying. Thank God he's never gone after anyone outside the household or their property. I have people ask me how I do it. It's not like we have a choice, you know?